And I don’t mean the kind from The Phantom Tollbooth.  I mean legit sailing ships trapped with no wind in their sails and a flat sea. 

I encourage everyone to read the Aubrey – Maturin series by Patrick downloadO’Brian.  Yes it’s got sex references in it, but it is the best series of books ever written about sailing ships of war. I own the whole collection, twenty-one books, and they aren’t short.

O’Brian does a spectacular job of describing what the doldrums really are.  Not laziness or acedia but literally an external force that prevents movement.  It’s hot, humid, no weather but the bright sun on a flat sea, reflecting and blinding, and the only way out is to row, row, and tow a much larger vessel behind.  Or, wait it out till the rains come.  You may die before they do, though.

Now, for me, the wind got knocked out of my sails.  For a couple reasons, really, but you all have had those moments when you just get deflated, right?  I am there now.  I don’t know what to write about.  I don’t have anything other than rantings to give, and that is no good.  My favorite race teams and drivers aren’t doing well, Sumo isn’t on till next month.  I’m getting sick, somehow, and it is causing swallowing issues and choking and chest congestion.  Exhaling is becoming harder.  I can inhale but then pushing it out is harder than before.

This is the only thing I have in common with Jesus, I think, He was unable to exhale properly on the crucifix.  So, I got that going for me. download

A bit of a spiritual funk too, I will admit I compared myself to holy people and found I am severely lacking.  To quote Tombstone, I’m no Saint.  By the way, thank you, Joey, for coming over and watching that with me.  It’s such a great movie.  I am placing my Faith in the Church of Rome, and I hope I am not a hypocrite.  Great movie.

So yeah.  Kind of the early summer doldrums, really.  These too shall pass, but I just felt I should explain the gap in posts.

5 thoughts on “Doldrums”

  1. you never stop amazing me Joe. I’m serious. your knowledge and thirst for knowledge is amazing. I mean–come on 21 books on the sailing ships of war.
    I think you’re in the intertropical convergence zone and the waves will start picking up soon
    see there—I’m your huckleberry


  2. Joe

    Prayed for you a lot today at Mass. No coincidences, so HS telling us you need prayers.

    St Josemaria- “Have I given in to sadness knowing it is an ally of the enemy”

    Kept up the amazing fight. You inspire many people. Don’t doubt it..


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s